Woken up at 7.30am by Angus, Andy got up and said he was going down to get another hours sleep. I turned to Angus and said "looks like the novelty has worn off" and giggled. It of course hadn't cos around 10 minutes later Andy was making me a cup of tea. I got Angus dressed and Andy took him down while I got myself dressed. When I went down to the kitchen our little boy was so alert and Andy was taking pictures. He looked at him so adoringly. I always knew Andy would be a fantastic daddy I just had no idea he would take to it so well so quickly. I saw the love in his eyes, the same love I had for our little Angus, this little boy we made together. I know every mother thinks their child is just the cutest little thing but I really like to think Andy and I had the perfect mix of DNA! We looked at him and it was like 50/50 half him half me, I think we both hoped he had daddys smarts! The midwife Lynn came to visit, Angus got weighed I got checked. She told us how wonderful we were doing. She told Andy he was a natural with Angus as he got him undressed and dressed again after being weighed. We chatted for a while and she left. I fed Angus and he got sleepy so I thought I'd catch a few winks myself. Little did I know on waking up my world would be shattered. I was only asleep half an hour but it didn't matter. I can't go into details of what happened after that, it's a blur of waiting for the ambulance, crying, screaming and despair. I know now there was nothing we could have done, I did nothing wrong, I followed all the guidelines all the rules yet it still wasn't good enough he was gone. It breaks my heart that our journey ends here it breaks my heart that we lost our little boy to something that no one knows why it happens, something we cant stop from happening again. What we can do is raise awareness and funds for the Scottish Cot Death trust, we hope that you all feel the same and can donate as little or as much as you can. They help grieving families like us through the most devastating time.